Imperfect People

Imperfect people are real people. Real people lived in the real world. And I am one of them. As long as we live in the real world, perfection cannot be attained; yet we must have hope, and for the best.

We grieved, suffered, heart-broken, pained, flawed, inferior, unfit, below standard, and felt incomplete. It is because we are imperfect people living in an imperfect world.

People wanted to overcome our adverse moments with ease but somewhere down the line our imperfection popped up. If and only, we’re in our own strength, we’re heading nowhere. The unseen work of God, behind the scene, only keeps us going.

It is natural that we have this longing for triumphing over this imperfection. We wanted to shine; be an example, leading a victorious life. In that pit of imperfection we may fall, yet it can lead us to discovering the meaning of life, should we rise again!

Imperfect Innate Being:

My father had taught me certain Christian values, which would keep my soul and body safe from the work of evil. I wanted to be a perfect boy at least by abiding with the rules of the house. Yet, sometimes, I ended up the opposite.

When I wanted to do good things, many times, I ended up doing what I hate. I want to live a life that pleases God and people around me. When we happen to make a hole in that imaginary boundary wall, we feel guilty.

Guilty-driven life has to be rescued with love. And many times I was rescued. But the thing is; the more you wanted to perfection, or at the least near perfection, our imperfection desire cropped up again. The saying, ‘rules are made to be broken’ holds true in young lives. And we have to fight the good fight, always!

Imperfect Body:

We possessed an imperfect body, which is susceptible to pain, developing wear and tear, as we aged. Some become healthy while some battle for life since their very conception.

Several people had gone through the knives; developed a never-ending pain, scarred for life, and need consistent care. Yet some people had complete bones, organs, and hole-less skin, throughout their life. Still, they go through pain and hard times in some period of their life, which might be harsher than physical pain.

We are imperfect people waiting for perfection in the glory of the Lord. We are God’s good work in progress. We eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. (Philippians 3:20, 21)

Imperfect Character:

I have no skill for interpersonal relationship with people. Handling relationships with persons near and far have always been an uphill task for me. But I am glad, there are enough people who still love me albeit my imperfections.

Decisions taken in our imperfect periods had led us to unwanted pitfall and hard times. Some are scarred for life, as our decisions followed by actions, once taken cannot be repealed. For many, it’s just that tiny ‘yes or no’ moment, which bugged our life since.

My tongue is a small part of my body, which is the hardest to be tame. We can hurt someone without talking much; it is the quality of words we spoke than the quantity, which really matters. A small spark from our end can set a great forest on fire. (James 3:5, 6)

I may write about forgiveness yet I struggle to forgive others. It requires the work of the Holy Spirit. When somebody hurts us we wanted to bounce back. From our imperfect mind there’s hardly anything which is subtle and mild for others.

Some of us know the ways of getting closer to God but hardly act upon it. We are slow to make decision when it matters most. Our acquired wisdom did not make us perfect rather it filled us with pride and self-esteem.

Hiding Imperfections:

We all tried to hide our imperfections. In this materialistic and unrighteous world, it is a good practice to conceal our imperfections, at some level. If not, we would have no respect and adore for people’s personality or character.

Our ways of determining our imperfections is when: we don’t have money, losing jobs, unemployed, unable to support our family, chronically ill, unable to maintain our status in the society, leading a lowly life, self judgment, many more. And when our hide-out is no more safe.

But we cannot conceal anything before the Lord, our Savior. We may lead a messy life yet God knows it all. Some of our lives are too messy that we might want to give up. However, our God accepts us, should we go to Him, despite our imperfections.

Trading Imperfections – On the road to Perfection:

Some two thousand years ago, our Savior has flag off a new bogie for us, towards the road to perfection. Since then, millions had boarded, some are on the road, while faithful and holy people had made it to perfection, in His abiding grace.

On the road to perfection many get healed while some are made to wait for glorious revelation. We get delivered from our imperfections in His abiding grace; our sins and chronic illness gets washed by the atoning Blood of Christ.

In His act of Salvation, we are once again connected with Christ. Therefore, we have hope of trading our imperfections as we headed towards becoming a perfect person in His abiding love. It is the greatest hope for the imperfect people.

Our physical imperfections, appearances, scars, and adversities can be our stepping stone for building a strong and lasting bond of perfection with our Savior.

Christians are not perfect people, they have their imperfections too. But we are heading towards our road to perfection, in His abiding grace, when we humbled ourselves before our Savior.

On that day, when we met Him, we’d trade our imperfections with the complete perfections of our body and soul. We’d trade our sorrows and tears with joy and happiness. Our savior will wipe away our tears, which are shed because of our imperfections.

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Compassion and Hope: Renewed Every Morning

The same year I’d graduated from University I had seizure. To meet my immediate financial needs I’d started joining a private firm.

It was here, at my workplace, I’d suffered this unusual attack, which plagued my living since then. I was seized and my life-boat capsized. However, I just believe it was some jerking in my brain, which would soon vanish.

My preparations and night-long practices for my dream job had been hit hard. In some major competitive exams for jobs, I’d simply slept away. Yet by God’s grace I secured a job in the banking sector, which I quit later.

In between work, I’ve been juggling and roaming through corridors of several hospitals in the hope of leading smoother life but it wasn’t meant to be, may be, for the time being. Until several years ago, I’d started visiting the Intractable Clinics. I’d witnessed the moaning and giggling, in dereliction, of patients encroaching the corridors of hospital.

Everything happens for a reason; reasons unknown or known, that I believe because I’d experience the other side of life too. Some of those very embarrassing moments are better left behind and forgotten. During the course of time, I was not consumed by my captivator, here seizure or epilepsy, it is because God’s compassion failed not.

My family blueprint, which I’d developed through the years, could not be fully put into practice. The blueprint contained determined sources of income, administration, expressing love, tolerating each other, and holistic way of raising children, and the likes.

Through the struggles, life goes on. I went on to live a normal life, although illness persist, and get blessed in different ways. Sometimes, I termed it as an ‘illness that comes too soon’ mostly because I cannot see in God’s view at this time.

There are times, in between, when it is difficult to find meaning in life. Yet I was not consumed by the work of evil inside my mind because the Compassion of Christ gets renewed every morning.

Although I don’t want to admit it; enduring the pain and physical frailties throughout, was not easy. In the meantime, there are obligations and responsibilities, which can’t ever be ignored.

Compassion and hope among men
Compassion in the midst of suffering

His Compassions Fail Not
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I do believe that we all have verses in the Holy Bible, which renewed our hope in the face of adversity. When in financial deepwater and health related issues, I was reminded of several verses. One among them is this:

Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. (Read lamentations 3:21-25) These verses has always comforted me and given me hope in times of adversities.

The Prophet Jeremiah had lamented during Jerusalem’s captivity. Chapter 3 of the poem mostly dealt with his personal lamentation on the issue of suffering and God. The compassion of God brings hope to those who seek Him.

When in captives the people of Israelites lived a troubled life. Jeremiah the prophet had witnessed the unfathomable misery of God’s people. The recent prosperity of Jerusalem has made their suffering all the more bitter. It is here in these verses a light of hope was shed again.

They are seized, held as captives by their enemies yet they are not consumed. The Lord was compassionate towards them. Again, let me reiterate here again that in their sufferings they are not consumed.

The Lord their God doesn’t allowed them to be fully consumed. Beyond their ability they get protected. In the hope of returning one day, they still lived on. Through His prophet he showed His compassion towards them in their sufferings.

My Renewed Hope Every Morning
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After several years of suffering, I’d undergo Brain Surgery two years ago. The aftermath has been filled with pain.

I’d develop migraines, which makes me, very much, sensitive to my surroundings and the pain was sometime unable to bear. Being devoid of enjoyment in life is a huge challenge.

When I was rushed back to the hospital, it was not easy to endure the pain and shadowy images in my eyes. The day seems to be too long when you are suffering.

I waited for the night to come. I wanted to sleep. It is my hope that the morning would bring me something. Every morning my hope gets renewed.

In the midst of my physical frailties, it was good to have that feeling of hope. I still cherished that moment: when I am able to see the morning light. I’d prayed with huge hope of getting home soon.

All my wearies of yesterday are no more. The night has consumed my pain in the dark. A new morning has broken; a new hope has filled my heart.

The love, mercies, grace, and compassion of the Lord were renewed every morning. It was a glad moment to rediscover I am still alive to see a new day. It is all because of the faithfulness of the Lord.

“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I hope in Him!” The Lord is good to those who wait for Him; to the soul who seek Him.”

In the face adversities, be it financial, health, relationships, His compassions fail not. The Lord gave me hope to carry on in this world.

That hope, at some extent, made living with epilepsy easier. Hope becomes one of the most important pillars of my life.

Living in captivity: a life seized, was not easy. Yet I have this hope that deliverance is assured; and surely on the way.

It was more of a reminder to trust and put my faith in Him, so I weary not. It was a learning phase although it’s difficult. The fruit would be sweet, one day, when the time comes.

It is my hope that He would provide, fulfill, and gave us hope in times to come. We will not be consumed in the process because His (God) compassion fails not! They are renewed every morning.

Lonely No More

For the lonely lives He had cometh.

Filling the void in their hearts;

Only to those open hearts.

Walked them, in their journeys of life.

 

Lonely no more, the soul found its Owner

Lonely no more, the fearful soul found Comfort

Lonely no more, Immanuel – God with us!

Lonely no more, He calm the storms of life

Lonely no more, the Kingdom of God assured

Lonely no more, Christ is here with me!

 

He came for the lost lives; redeemed.

Paid the price for their sins,

Acceptable in the eyes of God, the Father.

In the reach of them, He connects their soul.

 

Lonely no more, the soul found its Owner

Lonely no more, the fearful soul found Comfort

Lonely no more, Immanuel – God with us!

Lonely no more, He calm the storms of life

Lonely no more, the Kingdom of God assured

Lonely no more, Christ is here with us!

Born with a Purpose

Irrespective of what we do, if we serve our purpose in life, we’d be a blessed person in the end.  Our life, which is the means, would justify the/our end.

Longevity is a blessing but not everyone could have it.  Still, a lifetime whether long or short doesn’t determine our purpose; it depends on how we perform our menial or noble work.

Brevity: life is made of it.  Nothing lasts forever.  The longest day of the year is still one day; nothing more than that.  The longest lifetime of any creatures was still a brief moment in the sight of God.

In the brevity of life, where little things are simply stitch together, we are made for a purpose.  Nothing deters our worth, we are planned.  God has created our inmost being; knit us together in our mother’s womb.  We are fearfully and wonderfully made.  (Psalms 139:13, 14)

Our life is God’s good gift to us.  Circumstances in life, good and bad, reveals our potential.  Life in itself is the greatest opportunity.  Opportunists we all are, although political opportunists are not appreciated as they can hinder growth.

Struggling with our Purpose:

The problem lies in not knowing our purpose.  There are many lives shriveling day by day as they are unable to use their potential.

Not all persons could be CEOs yet the jobless are not worthless either.  In our own level we can serve our purpose.  Serving our purpose would give us sense of achievement even in our most unwanted situations.

Some days of the year I could spent wondering whether I served my purpose or not.  In the countryside where I was born, there was no or less facility to take care of newborns.  Yet I survived to this day by the grace of God.  I have this faith that before I could serve my purpose, here on earth, my God wouldn’t take my life.  And that’s my prayer too.

It is my prerogative in assuming that securing a noble job, which would raise our financial status and providing for our family needs, would be my purpose of living.  Or at least my purpose of leaving home for better opportunity, it doesn’t seem to be, as of now.

Our purpose could be way beyond our thoughts and what we wanted to do in life.  It could be lowly or doing odd jobs but serving our purpose would be our greatest privilege in living one life.

Our birth might not be foretold, as in the case of Jesus Christ, but we are here with a purpose.  We might not discover yet me might be serving or on the path of our discovery.  Here, I know one thing: We can help in understanding our purpose(s).

Born with a purpose:

The birth of a king was foretold through the prophets, number of times, in the Old Testament.  It doesn’t matter your acceptance, a king was born some 2000 years ago.

He was born in Bethlehem and first laid in a manger.  Born of a Virgin Mary was baby Jesus Christ; the God who came in human form.  He did not have a noble birth.

The baby Jesus was born with a purpose: to deliver his people from their sins.  Without mentioning the Cross, a Christmas would be incomplete.  Because His death on the cross was the ultimate purpose and completion of His life on earth, as He declared, “It is finished!” (John 19:30)

As it was told, “She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus because he will save His people from their sins.”  What does Jesus mean?  Jesus is the Greek form of Joshua, which means the Lord saves.

From the king who did not have a noble birth to spending his whole life with the lepers, downtrodden, outcast, and lowly people, there would be nothing to expect much from Him.

We had known the aftermath and the superiority of Jesus Christ.  However, if we’re among those who lived during his birth, nothing extraordinary would be expected of Him.

Despite the temptations and rejection He had received from His own people, Jesus Christ still fulfilled His purpose.  That too, in a very short span of time.

In just over three decades He fulfilled His purpose of coming.  Again, it reminded me of the brevity of life.  Despite the brevity of His life, He changed the world.  In that 24 hours, on the Cross of Calvary, He changed the fortune of the world, I repeated.

Jesus Christ doesn’t need richness, wealth, status, and good amount of time in fulfilling His purpose.  We know He is God who is superior over humans but in His birth as a human, He has become one amongst us.  He was the Son of Man who endured all kinds if hardships in His short span of life.

As the years Christmas is nigh, decorations and preparations might have started in some peaceful countries.  It would be soon followed by a celebration worldwide; some would celebrate it as reminder the Birth of Savior or as a normal festival.

As the streets, shopping complexes, and the churches are lit up in attune to the celebrations of the first Christmas where the angels had light up the sky in declaring His worth!

When you sit under the mistletoe, take some time to think of the purpose of Christ’s birth.  Then go on to think about your purpose of living this life.  Let’s make our wishes and prayer made known to Him.

Should we already know our purpose or fully surrender to His will, keep hanging on to it till the end.  He came to deliver mankind from our long impending sin.

As there could be a high point of our life there would be a low point as well.  In our adversities, our sufferings, our financial struggles, it is my prayer that the purpose these afflictions be made known to us.

As we face the world, in His grace, it was His purpose of making us whole again and reconnected with Him, and beyond.

Selfishness and Sufferings

There is no exception to our selfish ambition while in sufferings.  Selfishness needs to be tamed, and that’s the hard part.

Selfishness resulted in suffering.  And it is true the other way round.  They go hand in hand yet they should not be together as selfishness would cause greater sufferings.

Here we will talk about selfish ambitions only in the context of a suffering person.  Let us put aside those selfish ambitions for riches and personal gains for the time being.

Well, infightings has been going, on and on, in a suffering mind.  It is caused by the outward physical pain and the daily happenings.  In the end, selfishness becomes an integral part of a sufferer.

Entertainment, once they are, in the form of plays, music, and the likes, could become a hindrance in living a normal life.  I have been in this situation for a while now.   I won’t talk deep about it here but there are occurrences I have to endure in my epileptic disorder.  And sometimes it’s difficult to blend in with the normal surroundings.

Pain was caused in many forms.  Not all forms can be avoided.  But there are times when I thought some the causes could be avoided.  That is when my selfishness came up.  Selfishness, in turn gave way to more pain in the mind.  And that’s my problem too.

In living a life, there are obligations that cannot be ignored.  I feel bad when I cannot conform to the demands of people around me.  I felt that I was selfish because I have to limit my activities.

In that way, the interests of people around me were neglected.  At times, I found myself to be egocentric and self-centered in approach because of my weak physical condition.

May be, that is why the Bible gave no exception to any circumstances when selfishness could be utilized in normal living.  Selfishness destroys unity and steadfastness to God.

There’s none who enjoy life for a longer period in solitary.  Just for a short time, it might be enjoyable.  I am not sure about that.  We must learn to adjust in the interest of other.  Submerging in our self-interest is being selfish.

Disturbances in life could be a blessing.  If there’s nothing to bother life would be dull.  Eventually, loneliness would ruin and kill our life.

Selfishness as a Stronghold:

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A stronghold is a fortress where one can take refuge and safely dwelled with minimum threat.  Here in this case, it is that fort inside our human heart where the evil could safely thrive in.

Selfishness could be a stronghold for the evil to dwell if it is not destroyed from time to time.  If left unattended the fortress might be difficult to get uprooted.  And that is what I wanted to do every day.

It has parasitic character which would eventually eat up its host; here our life or character.  It has to be crushed, one day at a time, with the help of the Holy Spirit.

No one can simply spin ourselves in a cocoon while we are on the march.  We are to work together as a team in a family, society, and in the church.  Yet we are tempted, in many forms, to be a little selfish, manage ourselves, and stay away from people.

Beyond Selfishness:

Now, let’s see, in the Bible, what Apostle Paul wrote to the Philippians:

“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit.  Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.” (Philippians 2:2-3)  There’s no exception given here.

People suffer, even the righteous suffer yet they become the source of their renewed strength from the Lord.  When the Lord blessed our sufferings it can bring joy in our life.

There is a time for all – time to suffer, time to rest.  It is my hope that this phase would be used by God to strengthen my faith.

We all suffer but in different ways.  There is no great and small sufferings, the pain inflicted might cause same destruction.  But in the blood of Christ we can be whole again.

Rejoice in every situation, says the Bible.  In reality, it is really difficult but there must be a way out, I hope.  Let us present our request to God, in prayer and petition, with thanksgiving.  (Philippians 4:4-7)

In that way, the peace of God will transcend understanding while suffering.  Further, God would safeguard our heart and mind, in Christ Jesus, through our journey.

There are still many people, saints and servant-hearted, who could help others despite their sufferings.  I want to be like them!

Dear reader, if you too are still in your suffering phase I empathize with you.  It is my prayer God would guide us through this phase without causing further self-inflicting pain in the process.

May the face of God shine brighter in our daily life!

A Thankful Heart – 1

“Lord, thank you for letting me use a normal and functioning brain, for more than three decades now.”  I said silently as tears rolled down my parched cheeks.

It was a moment of great joy for me.  Never before in my life, I thank God for a particular organ functioning in my body.  It was more of a thing, which I’d always taken for granted.

With a thankful heart, I write this piece, as I have been able to start reusing my brain.  There was a time when I have been in the state facing uncertainty about my future.

Those twenty five days of my hospital stay, in which VEEG (video-electroencephalogram) was done the whole time, was the first installment of my three long series of hospitalization.

In that long period of my hospital stay, I was blessed to discover the good side of certain people.  In a way, i appreciate people more.  And I know that I will not survive in solitary.

“Come back in few days for brain surgery,” the doctor told us.  Soon re-admitting and my surgery followed.  I wouldn’t go in detail here as it was something I wanted let it go off, for a better hope.

Since I am not seeking empathy as of now, I will not go into the details of those hard times.  It was a time that was gone, which I could endure through the help of my savior.

My brain, let me tell you, was something which I considered very private organ.  When somebody told me, what to think and what not to think, I felt provoked.  I wanted nobody to engage in my private affairs.

Most of the time, I used my brain, in my own way.  Sometimes it helped me solved certain problems.  There are also time it misguided me, I would say.  Misguided mostly when I unplugged or failed to connect with my Creator.

When the heart and brain coordinate smoothly it resulted in building a sane person.  The timely use of ‘yes or no’ in the most appropriate instances defined a wise person rather than having a very high IQ level.

Ostensibly, it was one of those very useful gifts, which was taken for granted all the time.  But when some of the neurons got jammed, the real value was known.  After several treatments, and/or repairing as I jokingly referred it to, it never was the same as before.

There are many other organs in our body which worked together as one entity.  We should be thankful for that today, I am urging you now.  The creator must be praise for His deeds!  Thanksgiving for His loving-kindness, to that extent we are not even aware of, in our life.

At the same time, it would be more of an acceptable way of thanksgiving should we use our gifts for Him.  If you are suffering, like some of us, still give thanks for it could draw us closer to Him.

Here, I am listing the only one occurrence in my life.  There would be many, if you reflect on your own life.  The adversities you faced, which would draw you closer to God or even the smooth life you lived are worthy of thanksgiving.

The Psalmist wrote, “Give thanks to the Lord, for he (God) is good; his love endures forever.”  (Psalms 118:1, 107:1)  The love of God from the beginning, which transcend through our forefathers endures forever.

In His abiding love, he would take good care of generations to come.  Conform to His will, first, and He will do the rest!

How to have a thankful heart?

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A very straightforward and most accurate answer to this question would be: To let the peace of Christ rules our heart.  That is because we can have compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience, in Him.  (Colossians 3:12-17)

When we are in consistently intact, with Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit everything work for our own good, whether good or bad.

A thankful heart always possesses positive reasons to be happy.  It does not depend on circumstances but comes from his heart.  Even in very small things he can find a reason to be thankful.  It is because he has been consistently connected with his savior.

In Him we can have contentment beyond the offerings of the world.  Although we cannot see everything in His point of view, that little comfort we have, would bring out a thankful heart in us.

Let us give thanks to the Lord for everything He did for us.  More importantly, for sending His son to die for us, this is the greatest gift of all.  Be thankful!

Again, as the Psalmist wrote, let us conform here in his very words:  “I will give thanks to you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all you wonderful deeds.” (Psalms 9:1)

Should you have witnessed the wonderful deeds of God; please feel free to tell here in the comment section.

Abiding Grace: The Joy of Getting Closer

In my younger days, I loved to read as much as I could.  I’d enjoyed being submerged in thoughts of wise people.  In my innate being, I wanted to know more about them, personally.

Let me confessed little bit, I’d follow few communist whose writing pattern had become an obsession to me.  I’d imitate their styles during my school days.  More than the content in their writing, it is their style of expressing, I had enjoyed.

inspecting or detective
A child getting closer and knowing more

We all enjoyed learning new things, I hope, for which writers or columnist became our channel for getting useful information and resources.

Few years had passed, when I got to know more about their ideologies and personal ethics, I stopped following some of them. I am no more a huge fan of them.  Why?  Because, only in my perception, I know them enough to the extent to even dislike them.

That being said, there are few reasons – I have become more critical of them.  And I remained there, to be among their faultfinders, before I’ve moved on.

Now, getting to know more and getting closed are quite similar yet dissimilar hugely.  And as you see, getting to know more of someone does not end in being getting close, somehow or never.

In the affairs of our so-called ‘love life or romance’, we can be attracted to someone before knowing them as much as we wanted to.  It can led to a spark between two different people meeting in the stages of life – infatuation.

There are some who are unable to tolerate and enjoyed their incompatibility, which gradually let them to split despite their past commitments to each other.  Failed partnership, failed marriage, failed relationship, or whatever name we called them.

In reality, our getting to know more must have led us to being getting closer.  However, it can hit rock bottom and blew wide open otherwise.  There’s nothing as such ‘an incompatibility-proof’ in all matters.

What is next?  Being unable to get closer because of the ‘I know you’ attitude, jealousy plays a spoiler.  When we felt not closed enough for few moments, our innate evil owner could creep in, destroying everything we had.

This critical view of fault finding can turn into compassion! One can take joy in dealing with incompatibility.  When compassion creeps in, criticisms can turn us into being closer.

One thing, I must tell you, in the love of God poured out and made available in the blood of Jesus Christ, all things are made possible in His might.

Remember all the divisive barriers and personal strongholds were crushed on the Cross of Calvary, in His abiding grace.

Apostle Paul urged the believers, of Philippians, to let their knowledge and insights must draw them closer to the resurrected Christ.  When he wrote to them, in Philippians 1:9,

“And this is my prayer that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight.”

Our God, always, remained close in His abiding grace. The more we know the more we get closer or want to get closer instead.

Unlike other personalities and existing creatures of God, we could be as close as Christ Jesus, and as much as we wanted to.  His arm is always open to anyone. Let me end herewith;

To know more of Christ is to become closer to Him, day by day!